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Twilight

Sun, 13 Jun 2010 02:20:03 +0100

As twilight appears,
my dreams disappear.
My life fades to gray,
and goes away.
As the insects collide,
we see their true inside.
But as we look upon,
we fight among.
We bark, bicker,
hiss, and sneer.
Once we all come together,
twilight disappears.
So as for now,
our dreams not fullfilled.
The twilight day breaks....
into pieces.
-Dedicated to my friends Amanda, Anbria, and Jessica.

Ask Me

Fri, 21 May 2010 03:12:43 +0100

Ask me,
why won't you,
on how i live.
Because without you,
there's nothing to give.
And ask,
why I leave you now,
I only say this,
because my heart has no sound.
But you never ask me,
how I feel.
This situation I'm in,
it's already real.
It's too late to ask me,
there's no turning back.
Now no more you or me,
now I must leave....

Stuck in Glue

Sun, 09 May 2010 00:47:24 +0100

I musn't be like everyone,
I do not want to be a commoner.
But to fulfill my dreams,
I must conquer.
To conquer,
I must live.
Though my living,
has failed.
My life crumbles,
and cracks.
It breaks,
And begins to fall apart.
As my dream,
Fails to come true.
I have no help,
And I'm stuck her now,
stuck in glue.....

Lonely

Tue, 27 Apr 2010 23:53:20 +0100

"she raised her hand to answer a question…but was not called upon…she looked around herself to find everyone’s hands down…she slowly removed her hand from the air…and looked around herself once more…no one was in the room…she was alone, and stands up from her seat…as she walks toward the door, she notices there is nothing on the other side…she turns her torso 180 degrees, and falls on the floor…she closes her eyes to try to escape the loneliness…but when she opens them…she finds herself in front of everyone she loves, hates, and always wanted to know…laughter bursts through the air…and she finds her self alone in so many ways, once again…”

Writings For Friends

Sun, 09 May 2010 01:38:21 +0100

The day we met,
our lives had changed.
The day we met,
our souls have raised.
So now in present,
started from past on to future.
Our sisterhood lies,
until the last winter.
We always laugh,
we always hang,
and slap people,
that make fun of me.
So this is to you,
part of my life,
it is true.
And I just have to say,
I love you!!!! <3

Vampire Slayer Chapters 2&3

Mon, 19 Apr 2010 00:36:45 +0100

Chapter 2: A Change

“Please stop!” a high pitched voice shouted.

“Where have you seen her?” Caleb shouted fiercely.

“I haven’t seen her I swear!” the woman cried.

Caleb grabbed the woman and placed her in front of him off the ground.

“Aah!” she screamed in fear.

“You’re coming with me weather you like it or not!” he yelled back at her.

He then gripped her into his arms and ran, extremely fast. As he was running, he looked down to find the woman unconscious . He muttered something under his breath and continued with his run. Caleb stopped suddenly in front of a vacant house. He crouched with the woman still in his hands and sprang up into an open window.

Caleb set the woman on the floor and left her into that empty room. He pulled a cell phone out of his pocket and opened it. He then pressed a number, and a number was being dialed.

“Hello,” a deep voice answered.

“Did you find her yet?”

“No…I haven’t,” the voice cleared their throat and began again. “I’ve searched all over town, and I haven’t even caught a scent.”

“We have to find her!” Caleb shouted furiously.

“We will soon eno-” Caleb caught the person off.

“No! We have to find her now! I do not want to find out that she has been….killed….” he said almost weeping now.

There was a pause between the two before Caleb heard a breeze blow from another room.

He dropped the phone onto the floor, with a ‘Hello?’ coming from it. He raced reaching the room the woman was in in just a few milliseconds.

“What do you think you’re doing?” Caleb shouted.

“Please…I just want to go home.” the woman cried. “I didn’t do anything.” she continued.

“You’re not going anywhere, at least not while I’m in charge of you. I’m keeping you here for later.” he took a step and was suddenly in front of the woman.

“What do you want me for?” the woman wept.

“Well Emma, now that you have asked,” he paused and chuckled evilly. “I mine as well tell you…but not now.” he laughed.

Emma stared at him curiously, but was still terrified. Then her airway was blocked, Caleb was gripping her neck, her feet dangling off of the floor.

“Now listen.” Caleb said the words slowly. “ You will stay in this room until I tell you to leave this room.” he dropped her on the floor.

“Someone is going to find out I’m gone sooner or later.” she whispered.

“Until that day comes,” he bent down so that he was at her level. “you will never see outside of this house ever again.” he sneered at her.

“Fine,” she mumbled.

Caleb left the room, but taking a final glance at Emma before he shut and locked the door. He ran back to the room he was originally in and picked the phone back up off the floor to find that the phone has been hung up on the other line. He slipped it back into his pocket and ran back into the room Emma was in.

“What do you want now?” she hissed at him.

He smiled at her, and sat down next to her. “Listen, Melina and I are very good friends.” More than friends actually. “and I would really appreciate it if you told me where she was.” he said, still calm.

“Apparently you didn’t hear me before,” she said covering her face with her hands. “I-do-not-know-where-she-is.” saying each word carefully, hands still on her face.

Caleb hand was suddenly around Emma’s neck, and she was gasping for air. “Don’t you dare talk to me like that ever again!” he shouted while his face was right in front of hers.

“I’m sorry,” she whispered. Caleb let go of her neck, and she fell backwards. He frowned and then was out of the room in an instant. “Ouch,” Emma said softly taking hold of her neck.

Emma lay on her back for several minutes before hearing the door open again. She once again covered her face in fear, and spread her fingers to see who it was. Before she could see who it was, she felt a tear fall.

Caleb had a bored face on, and said, “Have you decided to behave?” But Emma was silent. He ran up to her again, seeing her face covered on the floor. “Get up.” he demanded, sounding bored.

Emma still lay there, hands on her face. “No,” she whispered, obviously frightened. “Just kill me, I’d rather die than stay another minute with you sorry ass.” her voice was shaking so much, and Caleb could barely understand her.

“What did you say? I couldn’t understand you.” he said sounding friendly.

“Leave me alone!” she screamed, but was cut off by a hand on her mouth.

“Shut up! Or so help me I will do something that will make you beg for death!” Emma’s mouth was trembling under his hand. “Don’t think I won’t let you off the hook when I’m finished with you!”

Emma had tears pouring out of her eyes and she grabbed his hand, trying to lift it so she could talk. But Caleb would budge. So she just mumbled under his hand, “What do you want me for?”

Caleb couldn’t understand her, so he lifted his hands.

“What do you want me for?” she repeated.

“Like I already told you, you do not need to know.”

“Please,” she begged, more tears overflowing.

“Not a chance.” He then grabbed hold of her arm, and took her out of the room.

“Where are you taking me?” Emma asked still crying.

“Just come on.” he said pulling on her arm.

Once they got outside, Caleb opened a door to a black window tinted car, and threw Emma inside. Caleb was suddenly in the driver’s seat, frightened Emma by his quick movement. “Just shut the hell up, and don’t speak during the ride.” he demanded.

Caleb continuously looked in the rear view mirror to make sure Emma wasn’t doing what she wasn’t suppose to. But instead, he found her asleep, head against the leather seating.

Chapter 3: New People

As Emma awoke, she found herself in a cold dark room. She blinked a few times before fully opening her eyelids. She rubbed her head, and sat up.

“What the-” she said stopping herself afraid. She covered her face with her hands, and opened them slightly to see what was in front of her. She found nothing, but heard slight whispers from a different room.

“Charles, we cannot let her go.” She heard Caleb say harshly. “She’s our only source to finding Melina before….” she trailed off.

“Caleb calm down.” an older woman’s voice said gently. “She will tell us where Melinda is.” a smile built up her voice.

“Mother, I’ve tried forcing the answer out of her but she does not know where she is.” said petrified.

“Listen to me,” Caleb’s mother said forcefully. “you will get the answer out of her or so help me-”

Emma disconnected from the voices, scared to listen any further. She removed her hands from her face and placed them firmly on her ears. She held tears back, and shut her eyes, laying back down on the soft bed. She shivered, lacking a sheet to cover her with.

“She’s awake,” Charles said blankly. “Do you want to introduce her to us?” he asked after a few moments. After a silence, Charles descended from his seat and walked to the room Emma was located. The door opened silently, but quickly, and a dark shape hovered over Emma’s already shaking body.

“Come,” Charles said smiling, while at the same time offering Emma his hand. Emma-hands still covering her ears- looked up, obviously frightened. “Come on, I won’t bite,” he chuckled, showing a glistening pair of white teeth.

“Don’t hurt me,” Emma mumbled, still holding back a waterfall of tears.

“Have I not said I wouldn’t bite?” Charles said, just a hint of impatience in his voice. Emma cringed back and covered her face again. He gently took her hands from her face, to find tears overflowing. Her eyes were sealed shut, and she was biting her lip hard.

“I don’t want to die,” she said croaking.

‘I’m promise I will not hurt you.” Charles said half-heartedly. “Come on,” he repeated. He held her hand in his, and pulled it, taking her with him. Emma used her other hand, to continue covering her face, and felt tears roll down her neck.

“Nice of you to join us, Emma.” Caleb’s mother said genuinely.

Emma nodded, hand still on her face, and spread her fingers once again to examine her surroundings. Emma found four people, including Charles, in the room. She removed her hand from her face, and also took her hand from Charles’ grasp, and had her arms straight on her sides.

“Mother, be gentle with her please,” Caleb said smoothly.

“Of course,” she said with half a smile.

“Why won’t you introduce yourself?” Caleb said.

“Uum…” Emma hesitated for a moment, and more tears bursted out of her eyes silently.

“It’s okay, honey,” another woman said. “you do not need to be afraid we won’t her you.” she said honestly.

“I…I….” she stopped herself and attempted a run for it. But she was stopped by Caleb flanking her right side, and grabbing hold of her arm.

Emma let out a shriek, and fell to the floor, only to be picked up right after harshly by the arm.

“Ow…” she cried.

“What did I tell you about ditching Emma?” Caleb said to her like she were a child. “Did I not tell you?” her gripped her arm harder, bruising it. He let go of her and she fell to the floor.

“Caleb!” the other woman whispered. “What are you doing? That’s no way to treat a young lady!” The woman stood from her chair, and in less than a second, appeared by Emma’s side.

As a reflex, Emma covered her face with both hands while biting her lip.

“Here let me help you,” the woman said.

“Amanda, just leave her alone. She’ll be fine,” Caleb’s mother said.

“Mother,” Amanda sighed. “We should treat her like a human being, not like a dog.”

Amanda began rubbing Emma’s arm lightly trying to help her.

“Can I just go back in that room?” Emma whimpered.

“Of course,” Amanda said kindly. Amanda lifted Emma from the floor and walked her to the room on the other side of the house.

“I’m sorry for how my family is behaving. They’re usually not like this….it just happened when Melina left.” she said apologetically.

“Just leave me alone! I’m sorry, but I don’t even know where I am, or who you people are!”

Amanda rubbed Emma should, but she shook it off.

“Listen,” Amanda whispered. “I am the only one who you can trust right now,” she continued. “Caleb wants to kill but I told him not to, and my brother, Charles, and my mother, Vera….” she trailed off.

“They’re afraid of you…” Amanda said lightly.

“Why? What are you talking about?” Emma said demanding.

“You…you are one of the ancestors to….” she hesitated.

“I am what? Some kind of person who’s damned to hell? Is that what your saying? Because I am not enjoying myself, not one bit.” she bit her lip, and continued covering her face in fear.

“Not exactly…” Amanda said. “You’re more like the kind of person who damns us to hell.”

“What do you mean ‘us’?”

“Vampires..” she whispered.

“Vampires? What the hell are you talking about? This must be a major joke.” she laughed nervously. “Ha, ha. Very funny.” but there was no hint of a laughter in her chuckle.

“This is not a joke, Emma.” Amanda said slowly.

“You’re damn right it’s not a jo-” Amanda cut her off by removing her hands away from her face, to put her hand over her mouth.

“Listen, Caleb is not in the best mood right now…so if you can, try not to make him upset.” she bit her lip. “We don’t want the house to be up in flames.” she sighed by the truth of her words.

“Well it’s not my fault that I was kidnapped and doing things against my will,” Emma mumbled under her hand.

“Just calm down okay?” she said sternly. “We don’t need any more problems,” she huffed. “especially from you.” she said pointing at Emma.

Emma’s stomach growled in response, and Amanda removed her hand from Emma’s mouth.

“Uum…can I have something to eat?” she asked apologetically.

“Not right now,” she said saddened by her answer. “But…” she paused. “are you able to wait a few hours?”

Emma shook her head, and covered her face with her hands. “I’m so hungry…” she mumbled.

“Okay,” she said standing up from the small bed. “I’ll see if I can get you something.” she said leaving the room.

Emma was alone for the moment, and was terribly confused by the past moments. Vampires? Vampire killer? Emma could only imagine herself in a terrible, screwed up nightmare that never ends. She sighed in frustration, and let herself fall back on the bed, rubbing her empty stomach.

“Do we have any food?” Amanda asked looking through the cup boards.

“We have oatmeal, I think,” Charles answered.

The sound of some things clanking and mixing were surrounding the house.

“You will not give her any goddamn oatmeal!” Caleb shouted.

Emma cringed and shut her eyes tight, afraid Amanda was going to get hurt.

“Why not? She’s hungry.” she frowned. “Are going to forbid her to eat until she talks?” she sighed and took in a deep breath. “Starving her is not going to make her talk….you should know that by now.” she shook her head. “Call yourself a mastermind kidnapper.”

“Amanda, this is not how the plan is suppose to go!” Caleb whined like a child.

“Too bad Caleb, you’re not going to hurt her.” she put the bowl of oatmeal in the microwave and pressed some numbers before it began turning. “We need her for as long as possible. We cannot risk him finding her. And we need to make her comfortable or else she’ll make things worse than they are.”

Amanda walked up to Caleb and went to his level. “If you dare do anything to hurt her I will literally make you wish he came over and shoved his hand through your chest.” she smiled and brought her voice back to a friendly tone. “You know what I’m capable of Caleb.” she laughed and went to the microwave to retrieve the oatmeal. “Don’t make me regret anything.” she smiled again, and left to the room Emma was in.

“Uum….do you like oatmeal? Because that is all we have at the moment.” she said appearing bored.

“Yeah,” she said rising up fast. “Anything will do….thanks.” she said smiling. But she hesitated for a moment, covering her face, but then quickly removing her hands, afraid of what Amanda would do.

Amanda walked into the room with a large bowl of oatmeal. It had the sweet aroma of maple and cinnamon. Emma inhaled the scent, taking it in, and quickly grabbed the bowl. She brought it up to her face and inhaled the scent, so much she could already taste it. She took the spoon from the bowl and shoved a big glob into her mouth. Though the oatmeal was still very hot, Emma didn’t mind, she was too hungry to think of how hot the food was.

“So Emma,” Amanda said grinning. “Tell me about yourself.”

Love's Disater Chapter:1

Sat, 17 Apr 2010 17:43:10 +0100

Love goes all the way through your life. Some find it early, and some, just don't find it at all. But in my case...........

"Sarin! Hey, wait up!" Kelly called from behind me. I did not feel like hearing all the latest "gossip" anymore.

"Kelly, not right now. I'm sort of....busy." I had to lie if I wanted to escape.

"Busy doing what--walking?" she muttered in a sour tone.

"I don't feel like talking right now okay? I've got to get to class."

"Fine...then I guess you don't want to hear about the new boy in school. He's in our year." Kelly sounded to excited about him, but since I had nothing better to do, I decided to just listen--yet ignore-- to her story.

"Okay, tell me." I said annoyed.

"Well, he came here from St. Joseph High. You know, like you did last year."

"Are you saying that I should know him?"

"You might, unless you didn't know that many people." Kelly said, making me irritated.

"Okay, listen. Unless there is something that I should know, that I don't know, let me get to class."

"Fine, fine, fine. His name is Alexander Tolly. And he has the most beautiful eyes ever."

Oh my gosh! Alex is here. I mean, we were like best friends at St. Joseph, but we still kept in touch even when I left. I can't believe he never told me. I'm am definately going to kick his butt once I find him, for even thinking of keeping a surprise like this from me. Before my mouth could even drop open, I pressed my lips together.

Kelly gave me a wierd look, like I said something wierd. My face must have fallen before I could even grasp it. "What," I said before she could talk, "did I say something?"

"You know him don't you?" She said while giggling.

"Yeah. We're like best buds." My voice sounded so dull compared to hers.

"And you knew he was coming? Why didn't you tell me that you had a super, hot guy as your best friend?" She said accusingly.

"Actually, I didn't know he was coming. I'm just as surprised as you are."

"Liar, you guys aren't friends, your just saying that so that you can get him before me!" Kelly seemed a little crazy for just bursting that out. But before I could explain, she was already stomping down the hall.

"Oh, my." I said under my breath. I stood for a moment thinking whether I felt like walking more to get a drink of water from the water fountain. I was thirsty enough. Once I turned around, I saw Alex. A sudden smile came out of nowhere, and I just jumped for a hug. "Hey Alex! It's been so long. How are you?"

"I'm fine now that I found you." He said with a grin.

"Thanks," I sighed,"what class are you headed to?"

"Advanced chem. You?"

"Me, too. Uum, did you wanto to walk there together and talk? You know, catch up."

"Hmmm..........."

"Oh, shut up and come on!" I said while tugging at his arm.

Have the Heart

Mon, 12 Apr 2010 12:45:39 +0100

With my heart,
in your hands.
There's no,
turning back.
And with my love,
surrounding you here.
It's getting,
harder to stay intact.
But know I know,
that this isn't real.
Yes, now I know,
this isn't yours,
to control.
To behold,
and bestow.
But mine to,
carry on.
So with my heart,
back with me.
And with my love,
just surrounding me.
Now I don't understand.
If this is us,
then why is it just me here.
So tell me now,
if you have heart.
You shouldn't be full,
of so much doubt.
Now no more lies,
I now the truth.
Now no more lies,
this all because of you.
There's no turning back,
and these are last words.

No Escape

Sat, 10 Apr 2010 02:46:24 +0100

My hands tied behind my back,
there's no escape.
My will it yearns,
but there's no escape.
There's no way out,
and my blood, it boils.
I'm trapped inside,
and I'm starting,
to recoil.
Free me out of here,
because there's no escape!
Get me out of here,
I'm about to break!
So with my hands on my back,
and my tears on my face!
I'm am suffering,
there's no escape!
As I dream,
for the outside, now.
I still can't find,
any way out.
You torture me,
but you fear me.
You hurt me,
but you love me.
I still can't see,
why you're doing this!
With my hands tied behind my back,
there's no escape!
And now my will is gone,
this cannot be fate!
There's no escape!
There's no escape!
There's no escape!
And I'm awake,
finally.....

Fear In Me

Tue, 06 Apr 2010 21:13:36 +0100

If this is the light I see,
then shine it brighter in my path.
For what I behold,
is not reality, or dreams.
Give my your sight,
so I can see through fire!
And give me your pain,
so I can see the death!
This simple life,
that I just can't live.
I am detatched,
from precious moments.
Within this body,
is dread with no emotion.
And deep in my eyes,
my suffering burns.
So when I say,
there's no other way.
My lungs, they burn,
and breathes in lies.
My heart it hurts,
but there's no pain inside.
As I walk to you,
my footsteps fade.
And what has replaced them,
is hatred, not bliss.
When I am sad,
tears, do not come out.
And when I speak,
it's, full of doubt!
But, when I love,
it's, so full of light!
I don't mean to bruise,
I don't mean to be sick,
but when I see your eyes,
there is no escape!
So tell me now!
Wrong or right,
I must be true, even despite.
I still haven't learned!
What must come true!
And I still cannot find,
that light should shine through!
So give me your sight,
so I can see through fire!
And give me your pain so I,
can see past death!
And as this story ends,
my life, it all depends!
But it's not up to you....